What do you write about when you can’t think of anything to say?
No really, I don’t have any idea right now. Anybody have any ideas? I need to eke out 200 words about something, but I sure as hell don’t know what to talk about.
I mean, I have a few topics I’m saving up – Podcasts, vlogmas, tea. And some that I can just go on and on about, like knitting, Christmas, or hating summer.
But I don’t want to waste any of those right now, because I don’t feel like I can write about them genuinely. All of them, even hating summer, is something that I usually get excited about. I can wax poetic on those topics for ages, and enjoy every word. Usually.
Unfortunately, my mental health is a shitstorm right now.
I haven’t even made an attempt to pick up my knitting needles today (for anyone who knows me, that should be a *gasp!* moment). No tea has been brewed (even though I usually have at least one cup of tea every day), no knitting done, no progress made on the story ideas I have.
And all that, of course, only makes me feel worse, which in turn demotivates me even further. What’s even the point?
For those who haven’t caught on, this is called depression. And yes, it sucks. But at least for me, I know that it will come and go. I may even feel better by tomorrow! Or I might not. Mine is not a constant feeling, like it is for so many people, but that doesn’t make it any less valid.