They suck sometimes.
I don’t want to get too into the details, but let’s just say, I was so angry and frustrated today, I started crying. And not just little droplets falling gracefully down my cheeks or any of that bullshit, I’m talking practically sobbing, snot dripping from my nose, trying to stop the flood of tears with tissues before someone popped by my desk and noticed.
On the bright side, I’ve finally come to a decision.
I’ve been waffling for ages now on whether or not to apply for a new position. I’ve wanted to work for the library since I was old enough to apply for jobs, and never had the right timing or opportunity.
What’s also hard is that whatever position I apply to at the library is a significant pay cut from my current job. I mean, truly significant.
The position that I want the most isn’t currently available, so I thought that I would just continue to wait.
But today was simply the straw that broke the camel’s back.
No more waffling. I’m applying for a position today, even if it’s barely above minimum wage and it’s the type of job typically given to high school students. Anything that gets me out of my current situation and into a library is worth it.